So, ya girl finally made it to the Big Apple. It only took me thirty-two years to get there, but better late than never, right?

To be honest, I always felt like I belonged in the big city. I’ve always joked I’d be the quintessential Musical Gay™ had I grown up close enough to civilization to engage with musical theatre. My measly little school did not have the talent to pull off a full production of anything, let alone something like Rent. And I’d make a badass Mimi. I slay “Out Tonight” at karaoke any time I attempt it. But alas, my hometown is a teensy weensy Skittle in the grand scheme of things, and so my Broadway career was doomed from the start.

Still, when my best friend/bandmate/honorary little sister Ellie messaged me to tell me about a LIT ASS HANUKKAH PARTY in NEW YORK CITY, I was so immediately down. Said party was hosted by a chef influencer who is like, actually famous, and we are but crumbs whose band is still in its embryonic stage, but as fate would allow, we landed those sweet, sweet tickets. The trip was going to be me, Ellie, and Cole, our bassist, who I can best describe as “cool personified.” We all piled into Ellie’s little white car and began our ten-hour drive to NYC, with all three of us taking turns behind the wheel. The drive itself was not especially noteworthy, except for when we finally got to the city and it took us literally two hours to find a place to park, and then we finally said “fuck it” and parked in a big stupid garage that costed us like $200 overall. So yeah, uh, not everything about the city is great. The fees are astronomical.

Once we’d found a place to park, Ellie led us to her family’s Manhattan apartment, where we were promptly ushered in and offered some of the finest hospitality I’ve had the pleasure of encountering. Seriously, my wife has talked up Jewish hospitality (her ex and her best friend are both Jewish), and I can definitely see why, having now experienced it firsthand. Ellie’s Aunt Elana was the first to welcome us, whipping up a trio of dishes and presenting them to us weary travelers like starter Pokémon. Then, her grandmother invited me to play a game of Mad Libs with her, which was a lot of fun if not for the fact that I had to restrain myself from using “fucky wucky” as an adjective. At night, the city streets treated me to a serenade of Pavement and other indie favorites through my open window. We’d explore the city in the morning.

When we woke, Aunt Elana led Ellie, Cole, and I to a diner (ahem, deli) a few blocks away called Barney Greengrass. The atmosphere wasn’t too dissimilar from the Coney Islands we have back in the Detroit area, but the menu differed greatly, with more of a focus on fish and pickled stuff. I ended up trying lox for the first time (which, considering how much I love salmon, is a wonder I’ve not tried it sooner), and also had some lovely latkes. I restrained myself from eating the latkes with a savory tomato and vinegar paste (ketchup), as I would at home. In my defense, I am a. not Jewish, and b. not exactly a bastion of great culinary taste. (My boyfriend, David, on the other hand, eats latkes with hot sauce like a maniac, which I think negates all 10 percent of the Jewish ancestry on his 23andMe results.) The waiter was kind of rude in a charming New Yorker way that I appreciated actually, and immediately clocked me as not being a city native. He thought I was from Portland, and having watched many episodes of Portlandia, I can’t say I blame him for that assumption.

When we got back, Ellie and I put on an impromptu performance for Ellie’s extended family and their friends. We played our extended set with several covers and even threw in a few of my solo songs as a bonus. Aunt Elana even invited us back to perform again, promising to bring more of her friends from the city next time. After our little gig, we rested for a few hours. The main event would be that evening.

After spending that afternoon getting ready for the night, we crammed into a taxi and made our way to Brooklyn, and I mourned the fact that I couldn’t blast my favorite Beastie Boys song the whole way. During our hour-long journey, we got to see so much of the city. It hit me just how enormous this place was compared to Detroit or even Chicago. I was not in the Midwest anymore.

Once we’d gotten to the venue, we had about an hour or two to kill before doors opened. So we took that time to explore the stores on the block, including an art and imports store that sold everything from elaborate knives to ornate rugs and taught knitting classes out of the basement. The shopkeeper was a friendly older Arab man who was delighted that I was able to say goodbye to him in his native language (working in a Lebanese restaurant comes in handy). The next store we visited was run by another older man whose ethnicity I couldn’t quite place, but he was very kind as well. To be honest, most of the New Yorkers I met were very amicable or at least charmingly aloof. Having seldom left the Midwest, I’ve heard horror stories of how wildly unfriendly the outside world is, so it was a relief to have most of our interactions be positive ones. In fact, the only animosity we detected at all was while we were at that store. A few dudes there were talking mad shit about me and Ellie in Spanish — not realizing Cole is actually Mexican and knows Spanish. He decided against intervening, as he didn’t want to start shit and hadn’t clocked them as a real threat, but he ended up telling us about it after the fact for the laughs.

At last, we got to the event. The venue was smaller than I was expecting — a singular room behind a swanky hotel — but it was crammed full of elegant decor and twinkling lights. Ellie and I escaped to the ladies room before the event really got rolling, only to meet THE chef behind the party. I, being faceblind and stupid, did not register that this was her, and so I went on some rambling tangent about how girls should be able to Venmo titty to each other (I stand by this idea). I should also mention that she was like, really pretty. Like, astonishingly pretty. Everybody there was that pretty. Well, the guys were okay. But the girls. DAMN. THE GIRLS.

I have never seen so many sexy Jewish women in one room. Oy.

Then, the 400 milligrams of a certain herb that is legal in both the great states of Michigan and New York that I had taken prior to the party started to kick in. And suddenly I was surrounded by all of these beautiful posh Jewish girls from the city and here was my hillbilly ass pretending to fit in as the edibles made me extra strength autistic. I swear that shit intensifies the ‘tism. I clung to Ellie the whole time as I kept worrying the entire night if my face was making a weird expression or something. I did meet a few really cool folks, including a very sweet burlesque dancer and a guy who worked in Africa doing poaching prevention. Sadly, it was really hard to hear in the venue, due to a combination of the loud music, my head being sorely congested from an especially gnarly cold, and my issues with auditory processing, so I didn’t do as much socializing as I would have liked.

The stage would be filled with all kinds of performers and speakers throughout the night, including several talented pole dancers and a very silly drag queen, but I think my favorite moment was the kiddush, or blessing recited by the rabbi, who was, in fact, pretty fly. He spoke about how we need to preserve our sense our empathy for all things— “even the neo-Nazis” as he added, which blew my mind. It’s so easy to lose sight of the humanity in people who don’t recognize the humanity in you. The rabbi’s speech actually left me a little misty-eyed. As I drove away from the city the next morning, I kept his words with me. The world would be better if we all had a bit more empathy for one another. Maybe the first step is experiencing life outside your comfortable corner of the universe and seeing that deep down, we’re really not all that different. Jewish or Christian, Midwesterner or New Yorker, we’re all silly little creatures on this big weird rock in space, and we are all capable of love.

Happy Hanukkah, friends!